Dont have to read. Just dumb feelings and thoughts. Serious.

hey all... well to those that read my blog... here i am... doing nothing at this late hour... while its raining... blogging... blogging nothing about anything else but what i feel... i dont see a good reason why a reader should continue reading this cuz its just plain out no sense... but this is all i got now... its late ive got nobody to msg... nobody's there or maybe nobody's bothered cuz they are just so worked out about their life... so what the heck...

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Yea this may sound freaky but... i learnt something after spending all of my time listening to every word that came out of the show ' Gossip Girl ' ( hey cmon i know its like a girl's show but what the heck im dead free ).... i know the show is rather bad i guess? Cuz of all the backstabbing the lies and so on... but izznt this life? One day or another im going to experience stuff... plus some stuff just might have happened already and im kinda thinking bout it... so what ive learnt 1st? i know lots of shows have said this already but be who you FREAKING ARE ! here's the sense if you so happen want to be like that person so much... why is it so difficult for you to be like that person? the answer cuz everyone's different... being different is good and bad.... i dont wanna go there yet... ok i admit i really really admit... i did stuff just so i could fit in... dont ask me what dont ask me who but i did stuff... now im kinda regretting... im asking myself why and for what? i dont think its doing any good to me tho... so im trying just trying to change to find more of the real me i guess... as a start... i love music and im not regretting it... i just wanna find more of that... and i really gotta throw away habits i picked along... thats where my friends come in... there's once where i was being too loud? and 4 of us were in a small car... and for her being a shy girl i kinda am thankful and was really shy at that moment... she shouted like hey ! can you just not shout ! we are in a small car ! we can hear you !.... so i was like speechless... its was rather funny tho... but here's one thing... its really really easy for someone to change just to fit in... and that change might destory you... as in seriously destory your whole life... so get friends get lots of them... if they have bad habits or something you dont like... dont avoid them cuz you'll never know when you gonna need that person... plus dont over-use your friends its not a good feeling to feel being use... been there... hmm... what else... ohyea... i want to thank my friends? for being there... i know sometimes they cant be, they have something more important or just is not available... or maybe shit happened to them or they just got really fed up of life... well's here something i would say.... by the way its my 1st time saying this... advice your friend or whoever who's really down... say go out... go to the place where you will always be positive always happy and never think of stuff thats happening... im not saying that you run away from problems... im saying you should go fix it with a clear mind... get tensed up wit the problem and you just might screw up more... so i think imma gonna stop... i just wanna take time out... and maybe call some friends... talk to them instead of msg... well thats all for today i guess.... untill then... ill just think of life.... ( should i do this? fine... just for fun ) xoxo? Valor... no need for comments i guess...

Mis-Understandin...

Err.... the people im mentioning about the outting to mid valley... Izznt Joanne and Yuli... Told them alreadyy... but they dont seem to believe me... Well... itz somebody else okay? Not from Radiant Life Assembly... So please dont say the wrong stuff... I dont really like mix-ups...