ImPacT-eD By Jolene.... O.o

Wao.... Just read Jo's blog... kinda like 1am + here... nothing much to do... and she talks about her good friends... She's got all kinds of ' necklace '... Aihz... i just dont know... suddenly after reading what Jo had to say... It just kinda stopped the time in my world... and all that was going through my mind was good friends... Well... i have 2 good friends in school... Guys of course... One joker... and the other more to the sensitive part... Well... as it goes for the joker... When he got problem... he cari me... Vice versa... The sensitive one leh... teach me to be softer in speech and actions... Well these 2 dah big impact on me... Joining church... Hmmm i wouldnt regret thought... Meet some cool people... and people which can rock... such as patrick , chai xiong , sam , anderson , jo , jason. Ahhh those guys... Hard to catch up with them since there's an invisible gap which i dont even know how it was formed... So all i mix with is just with some of them... Though you see me talking with everyone.. Well i dont quite click with everyone i talk too... One of them which i felt attached to is my GAY SIFU~ Yew Jin~ LOL... Aihz... but he went off... at least i still got some crazy people like Patrick and pinq.... I just dont know how much people value me... I dont mind people telling me straight " Ruben, your just a friend to me " or " Ruben , you dont mean much to me ". I really wont act much... unless i spent lots of time with you already... then just give me some time and lots of songs... I'll get over it... Hmm... So daily i need music... i dont care where or when or what ever the consiquences are... i need music ! Ok ok back to friends... So far i have one small gang... In school... everyone is ganged with their same form... Form 4's all in one gang same goes to any other forms... You guys think that im a noisy guy... if you try asking my peers " why often does Ruben talk to you? " answers will come back not very often / once in awhile / when he needs me or it would be he comes to kacau a little bit only. i bet you... hmm... having friends means getting influenced and influencing... Mixing too much will end up to become like Jo... able to fit in most people... thats something not a lot of people have... and i sometimes envy it... Argh ! Friends to me are like parts of me... i dont know if other people feel the same too but ill sort of change depending on who im out with... kinda weird eh? Some people think im weird... thinking about that to myself... it maybe is just the different way i think... i dont seem to think the same with people... weird I KNOW... oh man how do i continue when im listening to avril lavigne - i miss you... if one friend breaks off from me... i really dont know what ill do... i may go crazy ! just because of one feller...

ok la... i really cant go on... just feel so empty after pouring out... ok.. ill blog some other time... ( Thx Jo~ )


Take care guys~

EXCITMENT !

Finally getting to meet someone... WOO ! ( secret )

Awh... So Empty....

Rawr ! I tried everything... Yet feel so empty... Someone ! Help me ! Anywayz... I need new songs or beats ! Send to me please ~!! Well... Im in the studying mood... SoooOoOo... Ill blog more later~ =] Cya ...! I NEED HER !!! =(